im not so good with words
so dont ask me to explain myself and my thoughts
my reasons dun seem so clear, no?
not when you're blinded by the limelight, no




maybe im just a little mean
maybe i just dont see the need
and why it bothers me so much
doesnt seem to make much sense




i thought we were gonna mend our ways.
i would have changed anything,
just for you.
you know?
i would have done everything i could.





and if only you knew
how much you meant to me,
only then would you probably realise
how much pain and how much heart i take
into writing down each and every single thing
about you.



i mean every little damn thing i say.



although i know chances are,
you probably hardly remember them.




i keep every single word you say
deep inside my mind.
bad or good.
whether you're moody or happy,
its out of those small words,
which may seem insignificant to you
but to me,
its how they make my day out to be.




you matter.
and dont for one bloody second
doubt that you're not loved.
doubt that you're not appreciated.
doubt that you're not being cared for.
you are, you know..




i'll still always be here for you.
no matter how near or far we may be.
even if everyone were to judge you differently,
if everyone were to wrong your rights,
i'll make sure everything's alright.
trust me.




the thought still runs through my head.




please.
just dont cut me out like that.
leave me hanging there in the middle of nowhere.





you dont know
how your how're you doing msgs bring a smile to my face each time
how your online convos keep me glued onto the computer
how your presence around makes my heart beat so much faster
its how you make me feel.
i cant even express those feelings into words.



its something i cant comprehend




i would give anything right now,
just to talk to you
you know?




i think it IS worth it.
you are worth it.
well at least to me you are.




please tell me the old you is still somewhere out there.



even if she's hiding,
and bring her back)=




i always look forward to a day,
where you'll sound like your old self again.
where i'll feel the most comfortable.
where i know, it'll probably just make my day.



if i could send my guardian angel to tell you exactly how i feel,
then maybe things wouldnt have to be so hard.
but i guess thats only a dream.




i really miss you.
and i wish you would realise that.
sigh.






my heart's really doing the talking now.
im not controlling anything..





and if you're feeling alone and upset,
remember i'll always be here okay.
always.
even if we're not as close as before.
even if we dun see each other as much as before.
i will always be there for you.
heart mind body and soul.




i'll carry you wherever i go*